Wow! Just wow! A whole crap ton of good has happened in just two years. I am sitting here on my couch, with a head full of hair, looking outside at all the Michigan winter goodness. I am not nauseated. I am not bald. I am not waiting to hear if I am going to live or die. My dogs are passed out next to me. I am blogging comfortably to all of you!
This is really freaking awesome. I am feeling so grateful and so at peace. I am grateful to just be alive and on this planet. I am grateful to feel well enough to pause to almost complain(lol) about daily trivial things. I am proud and amazed that both of my businesses still exist. I am grateful for my awesome family. I am grateful for my amazing staff. Yep, lots of gratitude here for sure. I can’t stop talking about it.
Just think about this for a minute, only two years ago I wasn’t completely sure that I was going to make it out of that second cancer. Yep, SECOND CANCER! As if one wasn’t enough somehow. Ok, I say that facetiously. Any cancer is more than enough. Sometimes, if you don’t take a minute to joke, you run the risk of being too emotional all the time.
Have all my significant hardships and health issues taken a toll? Well, of course they have! Who wouldn’t have a healthy side of ptsd at times after all I have been through. That is a normal response. I still have times where a random or twinge or perceived symptom somewhere shoots me over the edge in a second, until I have time to take a breath and regroup and remember that the present is very different than the past. I am not perfect at this but I am working on it. I work on this not over-reacting thing like every single day.
Still, having said all that, my overall attitude is one of gratitude. For all those of you out there who cannot fathom how I could feel blessed in anyway, think again! It is a matter of perspective my friends! The bottom line is that I still have the pleasure of existence on this planet! I am still able to care for my family! I am still able to take care of women everywhere! What’s not a blessing about that?! Yep, I’m gonna go with the I am blessed attitude. Have a fantastic day everyone! Embrace what you got. You never know when it could be taken away. Enjoy what’s good right now dangit!
Dr. Katz